Just thought I'd share the latest text from my grand-daughter Shelby.

I know you don’t like being caught in lies, but you really don’t have any more options here pops. You’ve created this life you hate. You’ve created an alternate reality again that is so far from the truth, it’s scary. Everybody has bent over backwards to try and give you the greatest life and you’ve ruined that.

I’m sorry it’s come to this, I truly am. There’s never been a day in all of this that I haven’t loved you. Even though all the hell and pain you caused. All I’ve ever wanted was to have a relationship with the only living grandparent I have. But I continued to give you the benefit of the doubt, which I have learned just made things worst for us both.

I’ve sent all of our texts and blog posts from the last year and a half and got a psychiatric review to better understand the situation, how I could’ve handled conversations differently, and help with boundaries. The review is enlightening and devastating.

It’s only four days till I know we will never see you again and that’s absolutely devastating and soul crushing. But, you’re not the first person in the family who I have had to watch destroy their lives because of mental illness and addiction, and you won’t be last I’m sure. So I’m going to try and do my best to focus on the happiness and peace I can control and if there truly is anything I can do one last time to assist, I will.

Other than that, this is goodbye. I truly wish you the best in your next journey wherever that may be.

So, I'm a liar, I live in an alternate reality, and I'm suffering from mental illness and addiction. Wow, I thought I was clean and sober, working a summer job that I've taken pride in, and just trying to find a peaceful place to live.

And I've been writing some great code!

I thought I knew who I was, but I guess I'm mistaken...