Before I went to Tampa a while back, my doctor did blood tests on me that indicated the rise of specific enzymes inside my liver. They wanted me to get a Liver Ultrasound at the hospital, in fact the hospital called me and wanted to make an appointment.

I told the lady I had stopped drinking and I would get a new blood draw when I got back, maybe I wouldn't even need it! Why do alcoholics try to fool themselves? I lasted eleven days and was back drinking when I got the blood test.

I hadn't heard anything back so I figured I was in the clear, then the hospital lady called this morning and said a new order for a Liver Ultrasound came in on Monday.

I guess it's time to get this done, and I'm booked for tomorrow at 1000. I can't eat or drink anything after midnight.

Hopefully my liver hasn't hit the fan. I've always known it's my most vulnerable organ.

If I have a liver disease, then I would have to decide how to handle it. If it's something that could be treated by insurance paid substance abuse treatment and a pill, I'm up.

If it's shot and needs a transplant, or if it's liver cancer, then I'm down. There is no way I would undergo any kind of surgery or radiation treatment.

I've made this old mans bed for decades, and I'll lie in it!