Ok, this isn't good. It's 0530 and I've been up for a couple of hours. I've had a hot lemon drink, and oatmeal with a banana. I'm watching local news on my big TV, and the pressure inside my head is intense. I feel like it's going to explode.

If it does, I want my friends and family to know how grateful I am to have you in my old life. Thank you, thank you.

Daniel and Jennifer get my chairs and table, Massey can have my truck.

Please know that I value your friendship and love, and if there's another side, I'll see you all there!