Daniel and I were casually playing poker tonight with the News on and we both drew first hand, ace high straights within minutes of each other.

We talked about St Lewis where his aunt lives, and what a tough neighborhood it was. I remember landing at their downtown Greyhound Bus Station one evening five years ago. I was in the process of getting back to Idaho after driving a U-Haul here with all of our stuff.

That night I walked out into the street and got stoned with a young Nashville guy I had met on the bus. We taxied to the liquor store and bought small bottles, then we hung out in the dark with the downtown street people until our bus arrived.

When we transferred onto the Westbound over-nighter, he and I sat together and shared stories all the way to Montana. The folks trying to sleep on the bus probably hated us.

I caught this great line from the new NetFlix series I've been watching all day, (called Obliterated}: Embrace your demons, only then will you finally be free. I need to think this one thru...

I want to accept myself completely for who I am as a man now. What are my desires in life and how far am I willing to go, to achieve them?

What are my values in life, and how do I hold solid to them and constrain them solidly within my heart?

Damn world, just let me still drive my truck!