I'd like to become a rancher, buy a big old barn, put a couple hundred fat cows in there, and call it a Bingo Parlor.

Al Pachino, 83, and his 29 year old girlfriend, are having a baby together. Just sayin...

The main group of ducks, including Whitey, are missing at the Park. I haven't seen them for two days now.

I installed Zoom on my laptop for a face to face this morning with my behavioral therapist. Got up to speed with it pretty quickly, even did a test meeting at the Zoom website.

The therapist was cool, a guy around fifty. The zoom connection was high quality, like sitting across his desk from him. He had a wall full of books behind him.

I told him I had never been in therapy before, but I was wrong. I remember the time Marci and I went to a marriage counselor in Berkeley, CA. We divorced shortly after and she landed in his hot tub up in the hills.

I unloaded on him, and he was asking me questions that made me realize I'm not as bad off and crazy as I could be. The albino squirrel showed up on the porch and I swung the laptop around to show him.

We talked about goals and I told him I would love to be the non-drinking in shape man I've been before, but that's hard to do when your legs are giving out from under you.

We decided the best direction to take was moderating the drinking, and he's sending me resources in the mail. This could be a one time visit, but the guy is available via zoom anytime.

I flagged the new guy down after he dropped off a load of tubers at the end of the street. He seems to be enjoying the job and I told him to keep an eye out for the albino squirrel. Even point him out to his customers if he's in my yard as they go by.

I'm sitting here on a quiet afternoon, no TV, no traffic, watching this beautiful rare squirrel I've named Albi, eat peacefully off my porch. I guess life is ok, and maybe God is saying hello!

I may be a fucked up old man, but I have a good heart. I never have any intention to hurt anybody, and I help folks out every opportunity that I get, without expecting anything in return.

I listen and understand well, without needing it back. I don't lie or try to manipulate anyone. I'm as real as I can be.

I do my best to be a law abiding citizen of this great country. I respect the police, and understand they are not perfect.

These are values that unfortunately were not taught to me as a young man, I had to learn them through hard knocks.

But now I sit here in my chair, on a dead end street in the south, and I know that I have integrity!