I would define my once brilliant mind as cognitively declined and declining. One can only subject themselves to so much substance abuse, without consequences. That's the problem with being alone, there's no motivation and no motivating.

To sum it up: Declining motivation fuels substance abuse which causes cognitive decline.

I call it the DAM problem, Declination = Abuse - Motivation. There is medication for this, called Fentanyl. It's powerful stuff and it doesn't take much to fix the problem.

I just made myself a drink and set it on my table. Then I thought I needed to hit the bathroom so I stuck the drink in my refrigerator then closed and locked the front door.

Then, a bikini beach walk video on my big TV screen caught my declined mind for a couple of minutes. Then I opened the door, wondering why it was closed, and started walking around the house looking for my drink, wondering if I had actually made one?

Just a moment in the life of old man Bob...