I just saw a commercial on the big flat screen here in the dark Cave. It said What gets you going in the morning? What brightens your day?

I have no idea what they were selling, but I had to laugh, then mumble softly, Nothing, and nothing...

The first thing I do in the morning is put my warms on and walk carefully down a bunch of carpeted stairs. Then I grab the Protein drink I made the night before from the fridge, my pills off the counter, and enter the Cave.

When the weather is warm, the Cave is warm, but lately it hasn't been, so I turn on my little space heater. I'm usually dehydrated and nutrition starved so the protein, meds and vitamins get my body going, once again.

Then I wake my laptop up and plug my phone and watch in, and I sit there asking myself what the fuck I'm going to do that day, and I usually have no answer.

If Shelby has notified me of an upcoming medical appointment, I get myself ready and go do it.

Other than that I just waste my life away, eating whatever junk I've brought into this empty house, watch TV, then drink and blog.

Sometimes I walk, or ride my single speed bike, to get supplies. Sometimes I just walk around the blocks because I can, and need to. Some days I never leave the house.

I no longer drive the country to enjoy sex, drugs and rock and roll. Those days are long over, now I just survive.

If you're tired of this pathetic blathering and want to bail from this blog, please go ahead and do it now!